19 People Discuss What Happened To Their First Love


We were best friends for a long time before we got together and I loved her terribly. Then she got raped, did meth at the same party and was never the same again. She cheated over 100x in just one month in massive drug fuelled gangbangs as I understand. She left me around this time to pursue her new interests after having reduced me to a depressed alcoholic. After that she went to prison which actually helped her a lot. I don’t remember what she was in for though as we weren’t talking much at that time. She called me 8 months after we split up full of regret. I was young and while not angry wasn’t that supportive of her after everything. She was engaged again but it wasn’t going well it seemed. I guess she saw that at the end she’d finally even lost me. She got distant near the end of the call and the line suddenly went dead. She killed herself.


Married her, had five kids. Twins and triplets. All boys. Divorced her. Now she is an author. I’m boring now.


He broke my heart and most days it feels I will never be innocent enough to fall in love again.

Written by Alex Cogen

Alex is a New Yorker currently living in Austin. She loves cats, grass, and latex but unfortunately is allergic to all 3. She makes mom and dad jokes more than she cares to admit (jk she'll admit it loud and proud). She isn't as funny as she thinks she is. She is the founder of