19 Transgender People Reveal The First Sign That They Were Trans


When I was a young kid: Really really badly wanting reincarnation to be a thing so when I died I could be reborn a girl. At the time I just thought everyone wanted to be a girl. In hindsight I laugh/cry.


Around 7, I read these books about a boy named Marvin Redpost. In one book there’s a rumor that if you can kiss your own elbow, you will turn into the opposite sex. I nearly broke my arm falling off my bunk bed trying to kiss my own elbow.


One of my “genie wishes”, if I ever had a genie and could get 1-3 wishes I would wish to be turned into a boy. I wanted it more than flying. I wanted it more than a billion dollars.


I had my first period the day of a funeral. My mom gave me some tampons and told me to put one “up there” but it felt so wrong and disgusting to put anything “up there” I lied and ended up shoving a bunch of napkins in my underwear. Then I learned I’d be doing it every month for the next forty years or so, and wanted to kill myself all the more. My genitals make me feel so bad I can’t bring myself to masturbate and the only time I’ve ever had something put in me was when I had a pap smear.


Written by Laura McNairy

Laura is a freelance writer for TFLN. She likes to write about what she knows best — dating, sex, and being awkward, but usually in the opposite order. She is the Assistant Editor and videographer for Peach Fuzz, a sex-positive nudie magazine in ATX.