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19 Transgender People Reveal The First Sign That They Were Trans

13.

“Crossdressing” at the age of 3 or 4. Used to lay awake at night fantasizing about being dunked in a pool of a magic potion and coming out a girl. This continued from like ages 6-13. Pretty intense depression through my teens and feeling shame for the thoughts and feelings I had about wanting to be a girl. I used to wish I had testicular cancer so that I could get my balls removed.

14.

The hysterical sobbing and attempting to wear 3 too-tight sports bras at a time when my breasts started coming in.

15.

I was a 6 year old kid playing with the neighbor girl. She said I couldn’t be a witch because I was a boy but since she was a witch she could turn me into a girl. 20 years later I decided I would transition.

16.

Not really a memory, but my childhood was just constant confusion and frustration. Everything from toys to playmates was “off” and I had no idea why. I had precocious puberty which started at about 9/10 years old, and once that began I was really confused and absolutely mortified I was growing tits. Girls I knew were either excited or maybe awkward or embarrassed about the period/boob stuff, but they all seemed to have zero doubt that this is how they were supposed to be. Other kids in elementary/middle school also latched onto the issue way before I did. I got teased a lot for being “a boy” (tbh secretly liked it). I got the long blond hair my mother adored crew cut at 14. There are no words for when you’ve spent your whole life looking in the mirror at a stranger, and finally see a glimpse of yourself.
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Written by Laura McNairy

Laura is a freelance writer for TFLN. She likes to write about what she knows best — dating, sex, and being awkward, but usually in the opposite order. She is the Assistant Editor and videographer for Peach Fuzz, a sex-positive nudie magazine in ATX.